Thursday, October 13, 2011

Having a Little Faith

I'm still stumbling on things.  I once wrote that some people see me as a guru and others wonder how they trained a monkey to walk upright (no offense to moneys intended).

Why do I have to measure and quantify everything.  Why do I have to see the illogic and artificial segues between functions in systems.  It is obvious that others don't and don't even worry about such things.  In fact I have come to believe that most people enjoy being sheltered from the facts.

Like fluoride and its use. It is a poison and always will be.  BUT, 11 out of 12 dentists recommend it daily.  Other products fall into the same boat sunscreen, milk, and fats.

I spend more time then I should seeing things.   I should take a quick peek and buy the party line like others... my life would be less complicated and I wouldn't feel like I'm spinning my wheels so much.  I've heard it said that "ignorance is bliss".  Why is it so against my nature?  Why do some people run into gunfire and disasters?

I know... I can see the little boy even now "daddy why is the sky blue? why does the sun set? what makes popcorn pop?" an inquiring mind wants to know.  What makes a shoelace a good shoelace?... Easy, the right amount of friction makes it stay tied yet allows it to be untied.  Friction is controlled by the material in which the laces are made.  And let's not forget the load stress on the laces.  Laces that have to stay tied under stress must have a higher friction coefficient also.   Why do I even consider things like this?

Yet, life goes on.

My mom used to get so mad at me when she was in a hurry.  She often claimed I slowed down if she told me to hurry.  The joke here is "An INTJ in a hurry".  An INTJ processing data is like watching a pot boil.  There is only one speed but watching makes time drag.     

Oh! I should at least mention the main topic in this post.  Heavenly Father must muse at my childish tendencies as I stumble along in this life.  I have found myself on the other side a few times watching my own kids struggle, fail some, and achieve things.  I can't imagine it being to different for our Father.  A few weeks ago while praying I received the inspiration it was time to cast my nets.  I see others doing it so easily yet I have entangled myself and fumbled things and have but yet to get the net wet.  The trick is having the faith to continue trying to get the net in the water believing I can pull it up full.

INTJ have so few friends because they talk to much.  Never can seem to conclude an interlude... so bye before I think of something else.   
                      

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

So Mad

I have everything in place to make some money off someone else for someone else and I can't do it.  Everything about network marketing rubs me backwards.  I spent my day fighting down stomach pains from the idea of calling people and telling them about a new website.  How stupid is that.

I can't stand talking to people that call me to sell me something.  Yet, I signup to call people and sell them something.  How is that for petting a porcupine backwards?  I did tech support calls for work in the past I hated it.  I hate it when people call back weeks later and ask you to help them with the same problem thinking you know who they are and what the problem is just at the mention of their first name.  They get mad when you don't know them from Adam and don't care to... let alone their problem.

I feel like an epic failure.  I have heard it said that employment was 85% who you know and 15% what you know.  I know almost 50 people.  Only one is my confident the others are hardly even friends save 2... my parents.  I have a few siblings but I am not close to them even really.

Now,

It's the day after. I am going in again today.  I have to make it work.  I need the experience.  I need to develop the ability to handle people better.  And, I can't in good conscience not do the work... it pays well.  So, I will assume the people are computer generated characters and eliminate all feeling and emotion.  One more thing, I don't have to get showered, shaved, or dressed to go to work.  I commute to my computer during the potential clients working hours but I take breaks and lunch and vacation at my leisure.  It is a great job.

Perfected my corn flour crepe recipe already today.  My sourdough start is growing getting ready to be bread tomorrow.   The family schedule is coming online.  I figure ramp up will take 2 - 3 weeks to fully implement.

Well, off to the races
 

                      

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Back To It

So much to think about.  I am starting to find this site confining combine with not being the fastest typist in the world inhibiting me.  I've started to edit myself in the attempt at organizing my thoughts as I have found shortcomings in the blog design.  Simply the way the blog is designed is to small to adequately express organized ideas.  Sounds dumb I know but bare with me.  Only one page of this multi-page blog allows individual entries all the other pages are only one entry.  And I haven't discovered how to link multiple blogs together smooth enough to soot me yet.

Here is just a few things I have been working on since last time.

1. Gluten Free sour dough recipe - using corn flour and inexpensive ingredients  
2. General conference assimilation - This is a whole blog by its self
3. Family scheduling more completely - so much to rework
4. New job starting today - working out final thoughts
5. I developed a bunch of chilli and additional sauce recipes for a cook book I'm thinking about
6. Developing a new record label marketing model
7. Reviewing my gardening business idea and polishing it
8. Poking at finding a more direct marketing method for my Youngevity connections
9. Getting the bugs out of the Amazon.com affiliation
10. Creating a R/C oscillator and amp for a device I'm poking at
11. Attempting to contact my precinct people and get them registered for the primaries coming up
12. Spending time with my wife & family
13. Running the house since I work at home and she doesn't
14. Attempting to finance my healing - my mineral reserves are falling off and my body is starting to hurt again
15. Researching the connection between antibiotics, fungi, candida, celiac, type 1 & 2 diabetes, and the way to correct the chain
16. AND of course, each of these have multiple layers

I know other people aren't as involved in so many non connected things at once.  I can't say I'm stressed by my endeavors as it seems natural to be thinking all the time.  Stress is when a plan or idea is weak.  Stress is talking to people that are just talking.  Stress is explaining myself over and over cause someone I'm compelled to converse with isn't listening.  Stress is being ignored by educated idiots based on a ambiguous argument that the schooled are brighter then the gifted.  The most insane part of this is that the educated studied the gifted to gain a semblance of knowledge.  There is nothing more pathetic then a brain dead PHD.  Self deception at its best.  Sorry, must have hit a nerve. 

17. Researching the concept that our bodies are comprised of two forms of crystal - a solid locked form in our bones and a liquid form in our blood and through our soft tissues.  Of course, this also supports the mineral knowledge I gleaned from Dr. Wallach.  This idea also fits nicely with my religious pursuits.

18. Been aiding my wonderful wife with her side of the family's Christmas party and gift planning arrangements.   

19. Been thinking on starting a business selling my ideas for businesses to others as business plans and retaining a 5% or 10% ownership for a cash flow.  If I subdivide the gardening business I can create 5 or 6 independent businesses that are all related and can be inter-supportive.  The beauty here is that each of the 5 or 6 businesses are franchise-able even within a single city or town.  Think of it - A multidimensional non MLM business that has no pyramid in it that competes at the market level of an MLM.

Well, I've got to get back to it.  2 hours just flew by and I have work to do.           

Friday, September 23, 2011

Stress

Sometimes I don't know how I do it.  My life is stress.  Right now I'm broke with hundreds of dollars looming in bills.  I spent practically the whole month (there is still a week left) attempting to get one of three money streams to work... they are not looking promising.  My sons are eating me out of house and home, since schools out, contributing little back to the family good.  And then one of them has the audacity to tell his friends that he runs the household.  We have decided to offer the 18+ group of kids a contract dictating that they will follow the rules or move out.  Failure to sign the contract will force an eviction by force if necessary.  That should settle any difference of opinion between their mother and I.  It's hard to watch a kid with no or little faith flounder.

I have been a millionaire twice now.  Both times I was denied holding the cash by a circumstance just out of my grip.  I often wonder what I did to earn my health, wealth, and influence.  I used to be first place then I dropped to second.  Now, I ponder over why I find myself always on the other side of the fence.  My siblings appear to avoid me.  My son likes to make sure I know this as he is off with his cousin.  Being so bright and involved I wonder why he doesn't move on with his life.  Any more that feeling of accomplishment you get from crossing the finish-line after everyone else has gone home and the sun has set is all I live for.

This last week I keep running into a saying from Mark Twain something like this "A lie has to fit between the walls of probability and belief to have credibility but, the truth is easily dismissed because it has no walls."  I have spent a lot of time sorting truth from perceptions and lies.  No body cares.  Right now I'm watching 8 people I care about elect to follow a lie to their graves spending loads of money as they go.  Agency, I don't understand how others forfeit theirs so easily and accept death.  I know.  I crossed my "T"s and dotted my "I"s.  I proved that I found the truth by testing it 4 different ways : using it, going without, others' research, and prayer.  Who cares.

We have been lied to in our history, government, science, health, food, energy, politics, and economics.  No one cares.  The lies are easier to believe.  Fortunately, I am an optimist with a heart line strait to God.  He has helped me understand that we can make mistakes even pertaining to the things mentioned above and still receive a few blessings.                                              

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

The Big Oak Desk

Last Sunday the topic of offending the Holy Ghost was introduced into a lesson.  In my experience the Holy Ghost is more like a large heavy oak desk.  Very beautiful in nature, very powerful in presents, very dedicated to purpose, and as this essence of majesty, It has no reason to run but stand firm.  It is we that pollute our vision and handicap our path.  The desk is before us with its draws full of gifts.  Its top is covered with a thick glass, impermeable to our activity.  A phone, strait to truth, is on its corner.  A planner and calendar provided for us to guide our business.  And last and most important pictures of loved ones adorn its surface.  Now we can choose to use the desk as designed or we can attempt to cover the desk with magazines,  travel brochures, garbage, and other things that hide the desk from us.  However the desk is still there even if we can't see it.  The phone and other accommodations lost to our view... still remain.  We may need help finding them.

I don't see the Spirit as ever offended but extremely disappointed as we choose to hide our heads with our agency. 
             

Friday, August 26, 2011

Faith

Faith is an interesting concept.  Being LDS I've heard that faith without works is dead quite often.  There are other concepts to faith as well... for example.  It has to be founded in something that is real even if it is unseen.  Granted many things are real and unseen.  China is real but I've never seen it.  Consumer buying habits are real but, if you don't have a measuring apparatus they are quite invisible.  Collective medical results for any prescribed treatment are quite transparent especially with the right to patient privacy enacted.  I have come to believe patient privacy policy is to cover up ineffective but cost intensive medical treatments...  like chemotherapy (see page 551) but, I digress.

In re-railing the train, this principle of faith is actually quite involved in learning to learn.  I've concluded that learning is a 4 dimensional process.  The 4 pieces being physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual.  All 4 have to agree to make an idea, philosophy, or habit completely satisfying to the person learning.  Now, faith applies to all 4 parts of learning in that it must be used to confirm any or all 4 of the parts.  Let's say we are looking at a surfer as an example.  His body has to be trained how to maintain balance on the board... physical.  His mind has to be focused on objects and wave motions... mental.  He has a sense of  enjoyment and freedom rush over him...emotional.  His well-being relies on his trust of the elements and humble interconnection to their allowances... spiritual.  If any of these things are missing he is not a surfer for long.

Marriage is the same way.  It has to have all 4 parts.  The physical (were most guys start), mental (where the fights with money start), emotional (the entrance for the ladies), and the spiritual (the basis of all lasting communication) are all present in a good and strong union.  Most marriages I've observed have problems to workout.  The ones that fail are lacking the spiritual part most often.  "When she has a headache" doesn't wound a husband that is looking at a bigger picture.  In fact, it opens an opportunity for compassion.  Feelings of regret, doubt, and longing are not so insurmountable with the realization of true time and eternity.  Money dealings, kids, and responsibilities prioritize with a click as they lock into a seemingly preassigned place if the spiritual  elements are alined.  However, if any one of the pieces are missing resentment will grow in one or both parties over time and they will end with irreconcilable differences.                                  

Back to learning, good art, literature, and philosophy all revolve around these 4 parts.  I know this to be so in that through my observations, if my brain isn't stimulated in all 4 aspects I deem the work lacking satisfaction.  Educated people, most often, leave me wanting as they will usually leave out up to 3 of the 4 parts of understanding.  Or, they will focus on a specific aspect to manipulate compliance with their cause... like a salesman or politician.  I need all 4 aspects otherwise I can't except the pitch.  I'm sure I'm not the only one.

Pulling this altogether, faith is an action word for exercising the aspects we have in or on a particular topic to see if the rest materializes.  If it materializes it becomes knowledge, if it doesn't we move on.  But, there are those that propagate incomplete understanding or have accepted incomplete understanding that really just stir the mud of confusion.

Example cancer,

I have to start with the periodic table.  Left to right the elements on periodic table start with a more positive charge and progress to a more negative charge as electrons are added.  Of course leaving the last column neither positive or negative.  Our bodies require nutrients to function (60 to 77 essential bio- available minerals, 16 essential vitamins, 12 amino acids, 3 essential fatty acids).  In addition we need air or oxygen, water, and bio-energy.  To aid us along we require the assistance of enzymes, pro-biotic bacterium, and beneficial parasites.  We have to maintain a reasonably fixed pH in our blood, cells, and digestive tract respectively based on the system involved.

pH is lower if a series of atoms in a sample have a shortage of electrons.  A high pH constitutes the counter with an abundance of electrons.  So, acids are positively charged and alkaloids are negatively charged.  Good fats are neutrally charged.  Proteins are changeable as they function.  Bio- available minerals lean to the alkaloid side but not always.  Vitamins are acidic but not always.  Antioxidants lean to the alkaloids (which is funny considering ozone and oxygen are negatively charged like the antioxidants.  Look at sodium bicarbonate  +Na2 added to -CO3  oxygen is on the negative side).  Now, the punch line free radicals are positively charged and they oxidize elements around them however oxygen, in its many forms, acts as an antioxidant

Some meat... we are susceptible to 6 things malnutrition, viruses, bad bacterium, fungi, parasites, and physical trauma.  Most disease is poor nutrition like AIDS, diabetes, osteoporosis (sorry about the exercise rhetoric... exercise depletes the body of minerals through sweat) , and hypertension.  Birth defects are the same.  If the mother has the minerals the baby is good to go but, if the mother is lacking the baby will have problems.  Notice how some kids grow out of diseases and some don't... look at their food very close.  Even vegetables lack nutrition if the ground is devoid of minerals... all 77 of them.  Dr Joel Wallach proved that no disease is genetic just poor nutrition.

Poor nutrition is usually at the root of all problems.  Reason with me, viruses, bacteria, and fungus are all around us.  So, how do we keep them from getting to us?  Well, nutrition fortifies the inside of our bodies (building white blood cells and the like).  Good fats in our skin keeps a lot of germ warriors at bay so, let's go to our nose and throat.  Tonsils and adenoids sample potential dangers and sent the information to the spleen for targeted reinforcements.  What about our stomach?  Our stomach acid can kill some but not all threats.  Our intestinal flora fights off germs in the intestines.  Antibiotics play a significant part in keeping us sick.  Antibiotics kill both good and bad bacterium leaving a void for the fungi to move in.  Fungi can keep us from adsorbing nutrition from our food as well as poison us with toxic byproducts.

One last stop before I get back to cancer...  food adsorption.  Requirements to digest nutrition, narrow band UVb radiation, UVa radiation, a full array of enzymes, and salt.  Salt the main ingredient to health.  Sodium gets made into sodium bicarbonate (keeps the blood cool).  The chloride ion goes to make HCL or hydrochloric acid (stomach acid).  Minerals require good stomach acid to get into the body.                      
 
Free radicals in the body case cancers.  Now, how? you may be wondering.  Free radicals come from burnt and rancid oils we eat.  Try this one on for size petroleum products contain free radicals... prolong exposure causes cancers.  The difference between a petroleum product and a good fat is oxygen in the molecule (they tried to hide it in the article with some science-ease).  If you take a good fat and expose it to light, heat, time, or oxygen it degrades or rots.  Now when was the last time you had to throw away rotten gasoline? or unused motor oil from the self?  or unused cooking oil, shorting, or vegetable oil?  If an oil lasts more then 3 days outside of a fatty tissue, its a free radical.  Food preserving chemicals are often free radicals.  Sunscreen breaks down to form free radicals in UV light (sunscreen... cancer three ways #1, #2, #3).  Bad bacteria and fungi toxins are often free radicals.  Acidic drinks, like "soda", reduce stomach acid which causes a reduction of bicarbonate in the blood and a reduction of mineral absorption allowing free radicals to penetrate cell defenses more easily.

Bad fat is NOT found in butter, slow roasted beef, eggs, pork, chicken skin or fat, or cream per-say.  It is found in charbroiled lean turkey, seared well done steak, deep fat fried chicken, french fries, potato chips, olive oil, hydrogenated oils, and all processed foods that contain oil.  Even milk after processing (starting with the cow) is garbage #1, #2.      

Lets look at an American diet:

1. Hamburger with fries and a diet soda- grilled meat (burnt oils); potential wheat bun complications with digestion; lettuce and tomato grown in mineral poor soil for shelf life; cheese (from a engineered cow (hormones and antibiotics) lacking a mineral rich diet) salt (one good thing) ; french fries (extremely burnt oil) salt (same good thing); diet soda (carbonation inhibits digestion, poor mineral absorption)(artificial sweetener (free radical, breaks down to nerve toxins, and stimulates hunger)).  Yum!!!

2. Fried chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy, coleslaw, corn, and diet soda- engineered chicken (hormones and antibiotics added) deep fat fried (lots of free radicals added) salt; mashed potatoes (fungicide, to protect freshness) sterilized water, dried low fat milk, butter flavoring (acidic water, dead milk, no real good fat) salt;  Gravy (modified food starch (from wheat), dried low fat milk, burnt chicken oils, spices (questionable soil), monosodium glutamate (gluten), sterilized water, (fungicide, acid water, bad fat, potential gluten problems) salt;  cabbage, sugar, vinegar, oil, egg, preservatives, carrots, onions, (vegetables grown in mineral poor soil, simple carbohydrate (spikes insulin) white vinegar (acid, may contain malt (gluten)), oil (free radical), egg (trace amounts (complete protein, very good)) preservatives (nightmare); corn (soil again);  diet soda (carbonation inhibits digestion, poor mineral absorption)(artificial sweetener (free radical, breaks down to nerve toxins, and stimulates hunger)).                          

3. Sub sandwich with veggies, chips, and diet soda- Bun (wheat issues), processed meat (engineered animals (hormones and antibiotics) sodium nitrate (free radical, more toxic when heated), monosodium glutamate (gluten), salt, veggies (commercial farm grown poor mineral soil)  ; chips (free radicals);  diet soda (carbonation inhibits digestion, poor mineral absorption)(artificial sweetener (free radical, breaks down to nerve toxins, and stimulates hunger)).     

Can't see the cancer there!  The sad thing is that I can scratch make very similar food with no side effects.

1. Get organic grass fed beef.  Turn the heat down on the meat to 210-220 and use a lid to trap moisture and flavor cook it just a little longer.  The center of the meat shouldn't be hotter then 160.  Use my own veggies (tomatoes, lettuce, onions, and garlic) grown with all 77 minerals in the soil.  Use (in my case) gluten free bun.  Use avocado, butter, salt, and pepper liberally for dressings.  Use organic cheese.  Baked potatoes in peel with lots of butter, sour cream, onions, salt, pepper, and garlic.  Unsweetened blue berry juice mixed with unsweetened apple juice diluted with mineral rich water.

2. Organic chicken slow roasted on a spit at 250-275 for 2.5-3 hours with salt, butter (inside), sage (from garden), and basil (from garden).  Place water in drip pan to cool chicken drippings and keep then from burning (will be needed for gravy later).  Steamed potatoes mashed with raw milk, salt, and steamed chopped onion. Garnish with chives (from garden) and paprika.  Place meat drippings in sauce pan bring to slow boil.  Add cream cheese and let it melt out into the broth.  Mix water, eggs, and cornstarch vigorously.  add slowly to gravy base and sir on low heat until it starts to boil.  Remove from heat add more salt, basil, sage, and chives to taste.  Coleslaw, dice cabbage, onions, pineapple, and thin cut carrots.  Place into bowl.  In a sauce pan heat well beaten salt, pineapple juice, egg, and cornstarch with butter.  Stir constantly until mixture thickens.  Cool mixture and add to coleslaw to texture and taste.  Steam corn on the cob (from garden).  Serve with butter and salt.  Separate raw milk from cream.  Mix with blender lots of cocoa powder with a sample of the milk add honey or raw sugar and vanilla bean extract.  Pour back into main milk container, shake, and chill.

3. Bake gluten free bun.  Add veggies from garden.  Slow cook organic beef roast, turkey leg, pork roast, or chicken for 3-4 hours on low.  Add fresh made mustard (garlic wine vinegar, turmeric, mustard, salt, honey, and horse radish).  Lightly steamed broccoli (from garden) with cheese sauce (meat broth, milk, butter, cream cheese, parmesan, cheddar, cornstarch, egg, salt, and parsley (from garden)).  Unsweetened blue berry juice mixed with unsweetened apple juice diluted with mineral rich water.

Real food... no additives... It is amazing how filling it is.  Our bodies use mineral (like calcium absorbed) to regulate our hunger.  "We digest carbohydrates first, then vitamins, proteins, fats, and minerals last."  This was a live quote from Dr Peter Glidden                                                                                      
   
Now that we've seen the world of nutrition back to faith.  In order to gather, understand, retain, and practice good eating all 4 parts of learning has to be implemented in faith of the results.  For clarity... I used my body's physical reactions to various foods based on a knowledge of nutrition with an emotional twist to live.  This produced a spiritual event as the physical, mental, and emotional elements became focused.  With all four parts of understanding present, faith, or the work before understanding, produced an answer.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Humanity

I sit here at close to midnight listening to old music I found on an old computer hard-drive just feeling it and reminiscing.  We are so blessed by the love of God as the posterity of Divinity.  The order that is found in the intricacies of  math, chemistry, physics, music, languages, joy, and the many forms of love delights me.  To live is such a great gift... I find it hard to see why some people are so eager to pollute or destroy it.  "Je chanterai" a song from Celion Dion rings out with this experience but most would miss it being lost in the French interpreting.

Oh, that I had the voice of an angel, even as I have heard so many times, that I could expound the Glories of God found in all pure art, talent, effort, and trial.  That I may show his hand even as I have seen it.  Even the plainness of such a simple geometrical shape as a sharp corner manifest in wood screams with such order as to manifest Gods love for us.  Otherwise, if He loved us not, understanding and order would loose its coarse and corners would not be so crisp if at all.

Often, I find my thoughts drifting through the stars.  It reminds me how small I am, as I lay on my back looking at the night sky.  It amazes me, even as I feel the force of attraction to the earth, how my prospective changes and I feel at the mercy of gravity keeping me from floating off aimlessly.

Not long ago I gave a talk in sacrament meeting.  It was my intent to display orally the importance and commitment I have to my wife.  I heard from a group talking afterwards as they stated "wow, he really loves her" how unusual it was to have such strong connections.  I was taken back as I only believe in strong connections.  It perplexes me when others treat cavalierly those relationships that compose the tapestry of life.  I have seen others throw their relationships away for so many trivial reasons.  I just what to beam some sense into them.  But, I just shake my head as a feeling of clarity reaffirms agency as a God given gift to all.
          
Even now in my situation, there are those that would undermine my wife and I in the practice of our relationship.  Things got inverted as per what would be considered the norm by most.  I can't say that I'm content with the arrangements we had to make.  A few have approached us with the condescension that we have sinned or that I have sinned and that she should leave me.

Our first child died shortly after birth.  At the funeral we were told that it would break us up.  I couldn't believe my ears.  Why would I multiply my pain by leaving my wife?  Yes, she was in pain too.  She needed me to lend shoulders to cry on for awhile.  It was hard for me because I needed support too.  Yes,  it was bucket draining as for a few years we passed what little water we had between us back and forth until it began to increase again.  I can't see my dumb luck with employment as a reason to divorce any more then I could see leaving her for center squeezing the toothpaste.  We have dealt with a lot of little things and some not so little things that have ended the relationships of others.  It makes the others look petty and superficial to me especially those that are addicted to money.

Well, that will not be a problem in 12 to 18 months as the dollar dies and is replaced by yen.  Those that where so hooked on making money for security will find their work void and the years wasted.

The truly sad thing here is that I can't even explain what has really unfolded in our family pertaining to the world stage.  I have been a multimillionaire twice now but do to my luck I can't do anything that would claim my wealth without  jeopardizing my family.  So, I appear as a whacked out bum with a truth that most people can't wrap their minds around even if I was to expound it.

Humanity,  a challenge to be overcome.  Goodnight